Have you ever been reading your Bible, something you’ve read and heard a million times in your life, but this one day you are like, “ahh! So THAT’S what that means”?! It hits you like a ton of bricks. God is speaking to you. Well…that happened to me this morning.
In Genesis, chapter 25, starting in verse 19, it tells about Isaac and Rebekah. Rebekah was unable to bare a child, Isaac prayed, they conceived, and Rebekah gave birth to twins. As I am reading this, I glance over at my sleeping baby boy and that’s when it hit me. “For this child I prayed, and the Lord has granted me my petition which I asked of Him. Therefore I also have lent him to the Lord; as long as he lives he shall be lent to the Lord.” (1 Samuel 1:27 & 28) “For this child I prayed” – indeed I did!
We thought we were done having children. We had two; one girl and one boy. Jared was actually certain that we were done. I, however, deep down, wanted one more. (Which is strange for me, because I always said I wanted an even amount of kids so no one was left out.) I felt complete as a family of 4, and would have been totally satisfied if that was how our life played out…but, it wouldn’t hurt to pray. My prayer for a few years was, “if it’s Your will, Lord, for us to have another child…I am ready when You are. I will do my best to teach him/her about You.” Even though I didn’t run this prayer by Jared first (haha), I still prayed it almost every night. Little did we know, this time last year, God was answering my prayer. I’ve thanked God for this blessing every day since that little stick read “Pregnant”. After the initial shock wore off, of course. 😉 Now my prayer is one of thanksgiving, and hope that we will raise all 3 of our children in a way that is pleasing to Him. After all, they are His to begin with.
The study notes in my Bible says it best: “God wants to grant our requests, but He wants us to ask Him. Just as Isaac learned (in Genesis, chapter 25), God may decide to withhold His answer for a while in order to 1) deepen our insight into what we really need, 2) broaden our appreciation for His answers, or 3) allow us to mature so we can use His gifts more wisely.”
Prayer is a beautiful thing. Be patient. Be understanding. Know that God’s timing is perfect and His plans are greater than ours. Be thankful.
Oh..and for the record, Jared is thrilled that God’s plans are greater than ours. 😉 Kason was just what our family needed.